All I Can Give (June 13, 2006)

i am sorry that i can't give you that much;
all i can give you is my heart.
maybe later i'll have more to give;
but this is all i have to start.
i look at other guys, and they've been given so much more;
money, cars, schooling, you name it they got it.
sometimes i think of it too much and i get upset;
but then i think, "they don't have you - so they don't have shit!
the ring on your finger is small and plain;
but the heart that i give is bigger than the world.
what if things don't happen like we hoped;
no worldly possesions, just each other to hold.
would we be off that bad? would you regret being with me?
who knows if i'll ever play professional ball.
i know i know, i need to stay positive right?
sometimes its hard at 5'10 when everyone else is over 6 feet tall.
imagine our lives if we'd grown up differently;
parents were rich, lacked nothing that we desired.
I could've bought you a nice ring, we could get married!
back to reality now, why is it so hard for me to get hired.
its getting late now and my head's starting to spin;
got wake up in the morning and start another day.
whats the point of pursuing something that is never going to happen?
they don't want me, i'm not good enough for them no matter how much i want to play.
you're too small they say, sorry can't help that;
you don't throw fast enough, again something i can't really fix.
everything else is great they say, we love how you throw;
just give it to me straight stop pulling your kicks!
if you're going to tell me no then tell me NO;
don't keep filling my head with these false hopes.
just keep doing what your doing, you're doing great;
what do you take me for? I'm not just another dope.
enough about that, cause i could go on all night;
but its now time for sleep;
its probably for the best, since you probably don't care anyways;
i just hope this is one of those poems to keep.