My Heart, Broken and Shattered (July 27, 2008)

How can I explain this feeling? How do I convince you I'm sincere?
Why did you give up on me? Why did you lose trust in me?
Was I that horrible to you? Did I treat you that badly?
Can I really deserve this pain ? Who will be there when I can't breathe?
How can I trust anyone again? Will my heart ever be restored?
If you treat me like this, what will stop all others? Do you know?

You were the one. You were my future and my dream.
You were my happiness. You brought me joy and contentment.
You were ever watchful. You protected me from myself and Balial.
You were our foundation. You made to lift me up whenever I fell.
You were my strength. You knew when to say no, when too concede.
You were my passion. You burned inside me and took my breath.


I don't know if I am strong, I don't know whether I'll finish the race.
I search to find your love, what can I do to gain it back?
I will climb a mountain for you, or swim the endless seas.
I'd fight a million battles, I would defeat the mightiest foes.
I'd do all of this and more you see. To gain your love again for me.
To feel your hands touch my face. Your hair caressing my hands.

Without you my life is void. Empty as a black night.
Without you my strength fails me. Weak as a newborn child.
Without you my dreams torment. Horrifying images of being abandoned.
Without you my heart won't love. Resentment surrounds me.
Without you my hopes are destroyed. Hopeless and alone.
Without you I feel lost. Scared I will not be rescued.

In God my life is whole. Complete in His unending love.
In God my strength is returned. He fights along side me.
In God my dreams abound in joy. Glorifying His name forever.
In God my hearts love is abounding. Praising the Creator of all.
In God my hopes are replenished. Full and rejuvenating.
In God I am found. His arms are all around me.

IN GOD I WILL LOVE YOU. EVERLASTING AND PURE IS HE.
IN GOD I WILL CHERISH YOU. EVERLASTING AND TRUE IS HE.
IN GOD I WILL RESPECT YOU. EVERLASTING AND RIGHT IS HE.
IN GOD I WILL HONOR YOU. EVERLASTING AND RIGHTEOUS IS HE.
IN GOD I WILL ABIDE YOU. EVERLASTING AND HOLY IS HE.
IN GOD I WILL LOVE YOU. EVERLASTING AND PURE IS HE.